Jannnnn♥ Happiness!

Sunday, March 1, 2009 @ 8:02 PM

I need you, where are you?

HAPPY 7th MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

Didn't went to celebrate. What for celebrate when we're quarreling? Anyway we used not to celebrate or exchanging any present every month. Perhaps one year? We might exchange gift. Hmmm,
Rotted at home the whole day. Due to heavy rain, i never went out with yin, meis and sis. Yesterday went to EastCoast with Yin & Qkl. Before that went to Bugis to exchange my appeals. Qkl keep argue to go there release her sadness?
LOL?!
Unfortunately, RAIN! ); Mood swing 30%! Before that, my mood already swing 10% due to baby. Lazy elaborate.
Luckily around 5pm, the rain finally STOPPED! Way to shore and play. Qkl releasing sadness, Yin was upset due to her past, i was fair up because ..
Happened to saw baby there with his friends!

Aww, Spoilt our mood as he keep rush me to go home as i've to attend her Sister 21st birthday at night! Arrrrrrrgggggg, i tried to comfort qkl & yin yet he at there keep giving lousy faces nagging me and pulling me to go home! -'- Mood swing from 30% to 60%! I was at the shore for only about a 20mins only? Upset.

Feel bad to leave them alone ); Sorry guys!
Cabbed to baby home, bathed and her mum drive us over. I was extremely famish by then as only ate 2 sausages the whole day. Reached there, mood swing from 60%-101%!
Yes, i was left alone, sitting at one corner eating and blablabla.
I'm DAMN FUCKING LONELY!
Seriously, i hate that feeling! Thanks Qkl and Yin called me and accompany me.

Can you imagine, drizzling and i was running here and there just to avoid crowds!
Know why? Those people was like looking at me with a suspicious eyes!

I know they were wondering or thinking..
Why this girl is here?
Who invited her, whose friends? or ..
Where is their friends?
I SEEM SO EXTRA CAN!
Ohwell, you'll ask that where's my boyfriend. A very good question!
Oh, he was HAPPILY playing his Nitendo Wii at another set sofa .. EVEN he's walking around, he didn't even care about me!

I was struggling all the way throughout the party, i can't control my tears but i had to. If not my mascara will smudge -.-
I'm lazy to elaborate more. This is not a matter that, you apologised i will forgive you. Is just that it was sooooooo terrible that my heart become NUMB. I feel no sense of security..
I need a listening ear but, i didn't know what to say ... ); Speechless.

P:S: Language has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone.

Picture uploaded with bluetooth! ); Arggg!